Hi….just wanted to serve as a reminder to all you good, giving, caring people out there. I volunteer at a local food pantry and I see what is there, what is donated and what is needed. This particular pantry in Putnam, CT is currently overwealmed with canned items especially soup & vegetables. Unfortunately, the items that are needed the most are the items that are NOT donated or can’t be donated, such as frozen and fresh foods. That is where monetary donations comes in. When they receive $ they are able to go to the state and buy perishable items at a discount price. Some of the items that are needed out there are toiletries and health & beauty products. People don’t realize that many people whom are on foodstamps are only allowed a certain amount of money. With that $ you are ONLY allowed to buy food; not toilet paper, shampoo, toothpaste, toothbrushes, soaps (dish, hand, bath), detergent, sponges, sanitary pads, etc. Not to forget, baby items which WIC helps, but only so much. Also there isn’t much variety of special dietary foods, such as low salt, gluten free, sugar free & dairy free.
So people, when you are donating to your local food pantries, PLEASE consider other things, which MANY can NOT afford.
Hmmmm….My number 1 desire for my future is wealth, health & happiness. I know, so isn’t everyone elses, daaahh. But I really want it all and I deserve it, right? Ok I want to be a millionaire and have a beautiful home, able to buy anything I want and need, at any time, without worrying where the $ will come from. Maybe even have a Harley. Be able to have a part-time maid to help clean. Be able to take vacations wherever and whenever I feel like it. And able to help others to get to the point in life that I am at also. I want to be able to help financially and spiritually with my DALFH; for this will keep me thriving. My kids will be working towards their own goals in life. The only difference is if they truly want or need something, then I can say yes; no more “I can’t afford that”. We are all thin because we eat right and work out often in our personal gym and our swimming pool. Sarah has gotten the kick-start she needs by attending a weight loss camp for the summer. We are all healthy and happy in our new lives. I have found the love of my life, which fits perfectly in my life. He is everything I dreamed of. And my kids are in very healthy relationships also! Yahooooo!!!
All I did today is sleep, OMG what is wrong with me? One day I am up; the next day blah, I don’t think its depression, I just love to lay there and do nothing at all. Sheer laziness is what it is, no? This is my life, for some reason I just seem to give up on myself too often. The big question is what underlying deep belief is holding me back? Everyone keeps saying its my inner lack of worthiness. I just don’t get it, I think I am worthy of becoming “something”; I am worthy of having a fulfilling life; I am worthy of becoming wealthy & being happy, ain’t I? It has to be something burried deep down inside from my past but what is that? Hmmmmm, I just know that I hated my childhood because of my weight and being picked on in school. As kids picked on me, my self confidence deminished more and more. Then as I grew, I remember all I ever wanted was to find a guy to love me and have kids. Loving myself was never in that picture. I never felt worthy of love, simply because of my looks. I think I was looking for the love that lacked with my father and once I found someone I grasped him & didn’t let go. Well now he’s out of my life and that need for another’s love is gone. Now what I am searching for is My love for ME. I’m finding it, but it is a slow long journey. I always seem to take two steps forward & one step back.
I need to put in writing what my goals for life are; so here I go…..Short term goals:
Lose 25 pounds and get healthier – By June 1st….2 months total
Lose another 25 pounds over the summer – By Sept. 1st….5 months total
That’s 50 pounds by my 47th birthday and that will make me the skinniest & healthiest in many many years (I’d guess 25 years or more)!!
I have decided that I want to help others with my DALFH and Hypnosis/NLP…..But I have not moved an inch toward that…..I keep saying that I don’t know many people who would be interested nor do I know anything about marketing myself and I hate sales people (therefore hate selling) and am not good at speaking the words just don’t come out. Therefore where am I…..I give up……This is big with me Cuz I ALWAYS have given up. I am TIRED of giving up on ME…..NO MORE…..I have gained confidence in my self this past year or so and I am much more worth “giving up on myself”. EXCUSES BE GONE!!!
Am I not worthy of making my life more meaningful for me and those around me by working toward something that is fulfilling to me and, at the same time, beneficial to others? Yes I am worthy of a fulfilling life!! But the economy sucks….but I don’t know how…..but what if it doesn’t work….what if what if…….I have to stop making excuses. I believe yet have some doubt that: If you are doing something that you love and that feels good inside, then you have to believe that the Universe/God will respond and all that I want will come true for you!
Wow I never realized how hard this is…..I did not realize how many limiting beliefs that reside in me that there really are. How do you find a limiting belief? Just think about something that has ticked you off recently or made you feel bad in some way. Hmmmmm….what if I haven’t been ticked off? Ain’t I lucky lol!!!!! Wow, this spiritual journey has really changed my life…..I am at peace, not too much really gets under my skin. If anything that is negative with me is the fact that financial freedom has not come yet, even tho I keep visualizing and feeling it. It is so hard to think wealth and all when the cash is not in your pocket!! You have to pretend & visualize (LOA says)…I am I am….where’s the $$$??!!!!! I know it’s coming. I just have to find what deep down inside me is keeping it from getting to me. It’s there waiting for me; the question is, what am I thinking deep down to keep it from happening??!!!! In a way, I think it’s just that I am confusing the Universe because I am not specific about what I want and when. I just know that I want financial freedom; able to enjoy life and do and buy whatever I want, whenever I want it and definitely help others to the max!!!! Yet that poverty-stricken mind-set of mine gets in the way and says…..geese I would be happy with just $10,000 to get out of debt. Then I say oh I just want $200 to help pay the rent; etc etc. But that’s not the truth…..I want to become very wealthy, so I can make a change for myself AND others. Then I say to myself….that’s greedy or selfish!! No it isn’t God/higher power wants the best for everyone; it’s my old confined, negative thoughts that are keeping good things from coming to me. I am keeping the wealth from coming; me myself & I… not God/higher power. Why am I writing this?? Well maybe I figure that the more I see it in writing and realize how I am sabatoging myself; the more I will figure out how to change those deep inner beliefs. Also maybe one person can benefit from my words and learn to change their life also….maybe faster and easier than I did!!
Hmmmmm…..I know I have to start meditating every day and really get into what my higher self is trying to tell me. I can do it!!! I need to stop making excuses; set the time aside & just do it!!!
Just some thoughts after hearing Wayne Dyer talking about the Tao.
When your cup is full….stop pooring!
The more rules you make the more rule breakers you create!
Think small and do big things!
There is no way to happiness….happiness is the way!
Accomplish much by trying less!
See yourself in everyone!
Live without attachments……be generous!!
Take your need to be in control and shift from control to trust!
is constantly trying to make you
something else is the greatest
To be yourself in a world that
Ralph Waldo Emerson
“The best and most beautiful things in the world
cannot be seen or touched….
but are felt in the heart.”
~ Helen Keller ~
The future you see….
is the future you get.”
~ Robert G Allen ~
Is The Strength
To Meet Life’s Challenges
You are stronger than you think,
remember to stand tall.
Every challenge in your life
helps you to grow.
Every problem you encounter
strengthens your mind and your soul.
Every trouble you overcome
increases your understanding of life.
When all your troubles weigh
heavily on your shoulders,
remember that beneath the burden
you can stand tall,
because you are never given
more than you can handle…
AND YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK.